I’m not sure where I am heading, as I gaze up into the sky
I do not know whose feet are treading, as foreign boots kick stones awry
Am I the cute one you remember, rose-tinted, pure and giggly fun?
Dreaming of a bright tomorrow, as if there’s only ever one
I’m not sure what day it is now, though I know the days are long
I had a vision of where I’d be now, and every inch of it was wrong
Instead of smiles, puppies, rainbows, and all delights that life can give
I see jagged rocks before me, twisted shadows where light once lived
I do not know who I should be now, bit of old me, bit of new?
Who am I meant to trust now, and should I put my trust in you?
You did not know the past me, although she craved a life so real
She felt and lived so much it broke her, and doesn’t know if it can heal
What am I supposed to look like, when I meet friends new or old?
Do I plaster on a happy face, pretend I do not feel the cold?
And what if I take a chance now, when I start to feel I can
But it takes me to that dark place, where the aches and pains began
I am not sure where I’m heading, or how far I’ve got to go
I am not sure what I will look like, if I’ll stand high or cower low
I just know that I am trying, with every last breath, push and shove,
For some things in life may shake me, but I will always trust in love.